It’s crazy how becoming a soon-to-be parent, who will be responsible for a little human being, can really make you reevaluate your life. It’s really embarrassing to admit, but if I’m honest, I had been feeling stuck career-wise long before we conceived; however, once we were expecting our little bundle of joy, that feeling of being stuck intensified.
When 2017 came along, I was feeling pretty down and defeated when it came to my career. All I could think of was, I’m 30 years old and I don’t have a career yet. And what is my purpose in life? I am my own worst critic, and I’m sure there are millions just like me. Instead of focusing on all the important things that I’ve accomplished already, I started thinking about all that I hadn’t, and really regretting a lot of decisions I made in the past regarding my career. Reflecting on all this, I realized that I had never prayed about what path God wanted me to pursue. I had explored a lot of my interests and discovered that, whatever it was at the time, it didn’t really fulfill me. I knew I needed to make a change, so I began to brainstorm, pray, and hope that a lightbulb would just go off in my head and I would know, okay, that’s what I should be doing. After a week of really seeking God on this, that’s when we found out that Gabriella had stopped growing at 23-weeks gestation. To no surprise, finding my purpose was put on hold as we began to pray for our little girl’s health.
Fast forward to Gabriella being home for about two months, and us finally getting a routine down, that feeling of being stuck began to surface again. At this point, I knew I wanted to do something that would help people, that would give people hope, and give my life more meaning. While Gabriella was still in the NICU, I had thoughts of doing something helpful for NICU moms, and somehow telling people about our little miracle. One evening as I was cleaning up the kitchen, the thought popped in my head that I should write a book about Gabriella’s birth story. I knew God was putting this on my heart. I immediately told Anthony my thoughts, and the tears began to run down my face as I realized that this is my purpose for this specific season in my life. My purpose doesn’t have to be just one thing for my entire life. It will evolve as I get older, grow and experience new things. But in that moment, those were tears of joy because it was like I finally had an idea that I was truly excited about.
Since that evening, the ideas have been numerous and the passion for it has flourished. I tell you all this because this is the reason I started my blog. It’s the beginning of the purpose that is meant for my life in this moment in time. A purpose that I hope will make a lasting impression for years to come. Though my goal is to write and publish a book about our little miracle baby, and to start a nonprofit for NICU moms, I’ll be sharing my heart with you all as well. I’ll be posting about the lessons that I’m learning about life as a mom, life in general, faith, and of course, some really fun stuff as well. I really hope you all enjoy the ride with me, and I encourage all of you, if you are feeling stuck in any area of your life, do something about it. Take a step towards that dream you’ve always had, but never had the guts to act on. Be brave and step out of that comfort zone, and I promise, amazing things will happen.
I also wanted to share with you all two books that my friend Brittany suggested I read. (I totally listened to the audiobooks, but I love them so much, I will be purchasing the hard copies as well. ) These two books have changed my life and I hope they will be life changing for you, too.
The Motivation Manifesto: 9 Declarations to Claim Your Personal Power by Brendon Burchard
Stop Saying You’re Fine: The No-BS Guide to Getting What You Want by Mel Robbins